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The event
When you’re crazy enough to host open meetings where people come and ask questions, the conditioned pressure to give (helpful, satisfying) answers can go through the roof. The Kat-body-mind is now perfectly okay with saying she doesn’t know, or not being able to answer helpfully. But when I was still seeking, of course there were endless questions — the questions are pretty much what seeking is made of. And there was a formidable demand for satisfying answers to those questions, along with incredible frustration about not getting those answers.
The mind’s interpretation
We are all deeply conditioned to ask questions and demand answers to them. But it is the mind that is conditioned to ask them in the first place, then frame them as compelling, important, and in dire need of an answer. It can sometimes seem like a life-or-death matter. This may have been the case for questions such as, “Where is the saber tooth tiger’s cave?” But it is not useful — not even relevant — to what we’ll call knowing the nondual. If I could rewrite the book Seeing No-Self today, I would put in more about this: For nondual inquiry, only the question is relevant, the “answer” (at least in the way our minds can understand) is not!
The inquiry — please pause at every point to check if it’s true and take your time!
- Right now, notice a nondual question the mind presents as in need of an answer. It could be something like: What is Awareness? Who is the one doing the inquiry? What is nonduality? What is suffering? Why are we experiencing this? I’m sure you’ll find one!
- Pick one, and ideally, write it down in large, convincing letters. Maybe on a nice sticky note. Or put it in your favorite notebook.
- Read it a few times and let the question sink in.
- Let yourself feel the pressing need for an answer to this question. Feel the itch of it — an itch you can’t scratch.
- And then drop that need. Just let it be. Drop the idea, as well as the very possibility of the question even having an answer.
- Instead, let the question itself percolate in you, if that is what naturally happens. Let it marinate without forcing anything.
- Swim in the question without looking for an answer.
- Consider: “I think 99 times and find nothing. I stop thinking, swim in the silence, and the truth comes to me.” — possibly by Albert Einstein.
- What is it like to ask the question and swim in silence? Notice that.
- No need to try to describe it, just notice.
- Is there a knowing in the silence? It would be a silent, wordless knowing, so it wouldn’t be in the form of language or thought.
- Is there a knowing that doesn’t translate into an answer, that doesn’t “compute” in the mind, but is still known?
- Don’t worry if there isn’t, just live with that question too.
- If there’s a sense of what is being pointed to:
- What is this knowing that is wordless, contentless, mindless, and yet clearly present, and doubtless?
- Again, don’t answer, but wordlessly know the knowing.
🙏 Kat.
Katrijn Van Oudheusden
Am Heiligenstock 30
61200 Wölfersheim
Germany
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